good / bad
good -Dad is giving me his 50mm lens -today I made my own light sensitive photo paper -and put it in a potassium nitrate bath -did some chemistry for the first time in a long time -AgNO3 + NaCl > AgCl + NaNO3 -historical processes! bad -the syllabus for this class has two pages of just warnings about the chemicals -including sentences like “If your urine turns pink…” and...
six word memoir
To do: purge my Catholic guilt. Written this morning in my memoir class.
-first book: speak, memory by Nabokov -finishing the thesis on Klimt -spending Wednesday nights with my wacky history professor -developing final work in photo -weekends away -falling asleep with someone -first mail: beer and Hello Kitty stuffed animal from my mom -reading and writing memoir class -adventures, always
A boy asked me to come over and watch Daria and then had sushi waiting there that I then consumed while watching said Daria episodes. I can’t even. If you know me at all, you’ll know what perfection is in my mind.
-slept in (excellent (said in a Wayne’s World voice)) -Papa Pete’s cranberry turkey wrap -favorite song Moonlight Serenade playing in the diner -very nice beers -small talk at the Beverage Den -walk around campus in chilly air -perfect birthday dinner crew -many samples of beer -seasonal Maple Porter -crowded birthday party -all awesome people -decorations of all my favorite presidents...
-did some laundry -vacuumed my room -folded all my clothes neatly -dusted -washed my sheets -felt awesome -and also really boring -but tomorrow is my birthday so -awesome
back in vermont / the past two days
-Took a red eye -Did not sleep -Deliriously moved back in -Ate unhealthily -Had a valentine -Drank too much beer -Tried to keep my head from reeling
sitting in washington dulles airport
Wondering where the fuck I am and how did this chai latte get into my hand and is it 3am or 6am I am not sure and why is it light outside what is that a sunset.
Today I leave San Francisco to go to Vermont for the final time of my life. This is difficult for two reasons that are conflicting: one, I desperately do not want to leave San Francisco, and two, this voyage means my last stint of living in Vermont. I adore San Francisco and have come to really love Vermont. Both places I think are so special. And the worst part of this trip is that leaving one to...
-slept in -walked around Golden Gate Park -went to the observation deck on the de Young tower -saw the Ralph Eugene Meatyard show at the de Young -ate a burrito -went downtown -saw Todd Hido at the Wirtz Gallery -and Sugimoto at the Fraenkel Gallery -generally had an amazing photography day
annoying people in museums
-the people who peer around the barrier I have put up around the room we are installing in, asking loudly “CAN WE COME IN HERE?” -the people who photograph you as you’re installing a new exhibit like you are a display too -that woman I heard saying “Yeah, well in Pittsburgh there is a museum that’s like ALL famous art, not only a couple like here” -that guy who...
-actually got a seat on the N -came home -took a long shower -sat in this chair and drank a beer from France -ate Chinese Food Perfect.
an anecdote of frustration
A couple terms ago, a friend borrowed my iPod to put music on it to be played in between scenes for a show that was going on at my college. When I got it back I took most of it off (not a huge Nicki Minaj/Taylor Swift freak), but somehow I could not and still cannot find the file for “Toxic” by Britney Spears. It has been on my iPod for almost a year. Every time it comes on shuffle, I...
most listened to as of late
-Pixies -The Walkmen -My Bloody Valentine -The Cult -The Church -Blonde Redhead
We kiss on the mouth but still cough down our sleeves.
my mother does not understand winter
Mom: Did you see Dad's photos from Lucerne?
Me: Yeah they were beautiful.
Mom: Why were they all in black and white?
Me: They weren't...
Mom: Really? They were just...normal?
Me: That's snow and ice and grey winter sky.
Mom: Ugh. Awful.
7 years ago today i lost a friend
Sitting here today it is hard for me to think about how long it has been. I don’t feel like it’s been so long. I don’t feel like it was yesterday either. That old saying doesn’t seem to apply. It just feels close to me. He jumped off of the Golden Gate Bridge. I used to have a lot of opinions about suicide and that bridge and what should be done about it, but now I...